Have you gone absolutely bat-shit crazy yet?
It's taken me years to come to terms with being weird. While school friends were wondering about who to snog at the local disco I was face planting a book and wondering about the mystical origins of mankind. For years I thought that there was something “wrong” with me, I considered seriously whether I was mentally ill, I couldn't figure out where I was in relation to others. The older I've gotten the more I have realised that being in ownership of yourself means freeing yourself of what you think others think about you. I created worlds inside my head, on paper and in paintings as a means of escapism. I would be alone a lot of the time simply because I just didn't fit. I have found groups of people, friendship circles along the way but at a deep level I have never really shaken that feeling that I didn't belong.
In examining that underlying belief I have been using what would have normally been a means to escape facing that as a means to express it. I am ready to embrace those inner worlds in ways I never was before. This current creative wave that is floating through my life is creating a space that is more centred around expression and is infusing me with a courage within it. I am ready to share my inner worlds. I am ready to let some of them go. I am ready to heal some of them. I am ready to share.
I have learned that the only place I really need to fit in is my own mind.
If I am crazy, then I'll embrace that crazy and it will be the most authentic crazy I can muster!